20Th Nov'10

The word has always inspired me.

In has shown me strength, pleasure, profoundness and even at times excruciating pain..

The word has shown me great flexibility, openness and immense rigidity in life. It's meaning transforming with every sight, A cognizance of breath and experience. I wont say that my work or actions has ever longed for it cause they have. My experience, for which i hold great respect have unexpectedly driven me for it, it is what i believe and hold true for.

I have been present at times, where i have been misguided by it, have taken it for granted and blindly believed it to be the work or wish of that divine understanding we all love so much. I can't say i don't believe in it or i understand it because i have not seen the world. but i have once in a while looked up and smiled.

I have questioned myself of what it means to me, to my actions or to the understanding of those actions in a physical or a metaphysical way.

Sometimes the answer seems to be theological in nature (does it provide amnesty to my way of life? or is it deterministic?)

Its been a month since i have written anything on this sheet....

I still don't have enough thoughts to keep me interested on this page... (and a few months go by..)

I read this research some time back on this theory "The God Module" it talks about a very interesting fact that our thoughts or understanding of religion,god or even spirituality can be measured by our simple firing if neurons in our neural connections in the frontal portion of our temporal lobe.

One of the first proclamation to the true word...

"All religions of the primitive type try to keep men bound with regulations of external observances. Zarathustra was the greatest of all the pioneer prophets who showed the path of freedom to man, the freedom of moral choice the freedom from the multiplicity of shrines which draw our worship away from the single-minded chastity of devotion. To most of us it sounds like a truism today that moral goodness of a deed comes from the goodness of intention. I say it is belief of utmost devotion to self that brings forth the true for of freedom that is light...."

On occasions i recon myself that the word itself is an axiom.

And now i am again Blank....

16Th of January, today i mark a new chapter in my life. I claim I shall, for ever would be in debt to an old friend of mine....

Music! an answer to freedom. For the very first time I have in years, for I thought was for ever lost, have once again felt its perfume over me..."FREEDOM IS TO MUSIC AND MUSIC IS TO JAZZ"..

"life without music is a mistake" is what he has shown me in its true greatness... and i thank him for this...

Freedom ....the start...

Ah! sunflower, weary of time,

Who countest the steps of the sun,

Seeking after that sweet golden clime

Where that traveller's journey is done;

Where the youth pined away with desire,

And the pale virgin shrouded in snow,

Arise from their graves and aspire;

Where my sunflower wishes to go.